I don't have any feeling. I'm numb. Litteraly.
Charlie just told me that he's engaged.
Charlie: ME AND KRISSY ARE GETTIN MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-D:-D:-D:-D:-D:-D
Charlie: were gonna have hot sex everynight and make lots of baby buckles!!!!!!!
Does he realize what that does to me?
Does he know that I still love him?
Does it matter?
Why is it that everytime, I really start to feel really comfortable about a guy, he goes and gets married or breaks up with me?
It makes me want to go cry. I went from an all time high, to an ultimate low. I mean I can actually feel the effect of being low has on you. For me, I makes me feel so small, being in New York, walking along on the sidewalk, not being noticed. I guess that would signify my feelings. My feelings are small and no one notices them. And when it happens, I become numb.
I think im gonna lay down again, I...just...i dont know